sucks

When you are not the one to choose
when you are not the one who takes the risks
when nothing you do seems right
when everything with a simple word fades away
when all you try to do, always get stuck
life starts to suck


Im sick of it, nothing is completely mine
i cannot choose at all
i keep coming and going
turning around, going and coming back
I have always believed in values
such as loyalty, trust, sincerity
but over all to be able to love
i only wish everyone would believe it as well
if that were the case, i bet my life,
this mad world would be a different story


When you now you cant keep on the same track
when you are sure that you could be better
in some other place
when you are stuck, you wanna change,
but youre sure it wouldnt matter.
i dont know what to do
im just positively sure
that i could be doing it better
God where are you??
i need urgent help, would you mind to show up?
I cannot keep fighting
im sick of it, you never get nowhere
neither at home, at work, anywhere
you just have your hands tied,
nothing is fine
is just you against the world,
nobody else around
when there are choices to make
fear always show up
and the cold blood you could have acquired
runs away.
i know at some point ill find the answers
but right now, im tired of waiting, trying and expecting
i just want to have everything solved.

CANT

I cant keep counting on you
i cant keep trusting on you
i cant keep saying i want you in my life
that is somehow not truth
I want to keep you as a memory
nothing but that, but it seems to me
like i cannot,
something inside me keeps saying
better cut it all off.
I am not so sure about letting it all go
because is sort of annoying
keep in touch with you
is like a rule
one of us will always end up angry
sometimes is you, sometimes is me
when you are alone you keep coming to me
but when you are with someone barely look back
is not fair, is not what i want,
But that is just a part of my life
when i get to see it all
nothing i do, seems to be complete
everything i try always gets missed
something is never done
something is not as it should
and i just keep making mistakes i should not
i dont have the strength, the patience
something is missing,
something is not being well done.
Something needs to be renewed
something needs to be turn blue
i will find the answers at some point
right now im tired
im sick of thinking all this
and i will wait for the right time
i am tired of trying to keep at your pace
thats why today i said
i wont until you say the first word...